Christmas

Well, it's Christmas morning, and my parents are both down with a stomach flu virus as well as my little sister (to add to our already hard circumstances!). So, afew minutes ago, I was lying in my bed feeling sorry for myself, when it occurred to me what an awesome opportunity this was to truly focus on Jesus on Christmas. I have unopened gifts under the tree right now, and the weird thing is, I really don't even care. When I'm done writing this, I'm going to do my devotions, and read the Christmas story in Luke.
Every time something small (or big) like this happens, I can always hear God saying, "Olivia! Wake up! Can't you see this is your opportunity to come closer to me? I've given you the privilege of having no one but me to lean on in this moment, and I want so badly for you to see that this is beautiful."
I don't know that we're even going to have Christmas today. My little brother, Ethan, is being so patient. He's given so much effort to be good and he hasn't asked to open a gift once!
I am so thankful to be able to have alone time with Jesus. Right here. Right now. To come closer to Him through what seems like a terrible day, and prepare my heart for the tougher ones ahead. I love how God can turn depressing situations into a total blessing. And I haven't even began to see all He can do.
Job 26:12-14
12 By his power he churned up the sea;
by his wisdom he cut Rahab to pieces.

13 By his breath the skies became fair;
his hand pierced the gliding serpent.

14 And these are but the outer fringe of his works;
how faint the whisper we hear of him!
Who then can understand the thunder of his power?"

Song in the works

So... as a lot of you guys know, we're going through a bit of a hard time here at home. Well, a few weeks ago, when things started getting hard, my mom was hugging me while I cried and softly said, "Maybe you'll write a beautiful song out of all this." I didn't think anything of it at the time, but God has spoken to my heart in so many ways, that, the other night, I finally felt ready to sit down with pen and paper. So I said a little prayer, and here is the beginning of the first song I've written in a long time:

My feelings are lost behind
Words I can't seem to find
All I am
Has faded away
I feel exposed
All I can do is pray

So say the words
I cannot speak
And be my strength
When I am weak
I'm sorry that it took so long
To admit that I am nothing alone
It takes me crashing to the ground
Unable to move or make a sound
To realize you are all I need
For you must become more
And I must decrease

I am hurt
But I am healed
For I am loved
The promise is sealed
If that is all the hope I have -
Your unchanging love -
Then for that I'm glad

Shut my mouth
And change my heart
Mend it where
It's broken apart
Here's my offer
Here's my hand
Here's my life
Lord, Here I am.

New Blog!

Hey guys!

I'm finally starting a blog here! WOO HOO!!!

I decided to name my page "Becoming less and less" because of one of my all time FAVORITE verses

John 3:30

He must become greater; I must become less.

Anyway... I have to scoot right now, but I can't wait to get started on here. TTYL!

Livvy~