Contentment

I'm waiting for my music ministry to move ahead.
I'm waiting to meet my future husband.
I'm waiting for a car.
I'm waiting for a spark of songwriting creativity.
I'm waiting for a job.
I'm waiting for a more clear direction in life in general.

But, reading my own words, I also see that I have all the time in the world to spend with Jesus. Everything seems so pointless, endless, repetitive... but I have so many opportunities throughout the day to simply "be" with Jesus. If nothing else, I am learning to be content. To put it in God's hands instead of trying to take control because I don't approve of where I am. I don't know why he's making me wait for so many things. I don't know if it even has anything to do with me. I just know that this is my time with Him...

Now.
Without a career draining me emotionally and physically.

Now.
As a single person who can FULLY focus on God.

Now.
Right where God wants me to be.

I recently wrote a short song. Some of the lyrics goes like this:

Thank you Jesus
For not giving me my way
Thank you Jesus
That all I have is today
Thank you Jesus
That life isn't fair
Thank you Jesus
For not granting this prayer.

As Francis Shaeffer so wisely said "Nothing would terrify me more than to know that I could ask for anything today and get it. Because I don't know enough."
I trust in God, being all-knowing and loving me so deeply, as opposed to myself, because i am finite, and there's simply no way I could know what's best for myself.
Here am I Lord.
Send me.

Your faithful daughter,
Olivia