Pain

My heart hurts so badly...

Time is supposed to heal...

But time passes so slowly when you have a broken heart. I want to redo what I've done, but what I did was the right thing. I know it. God confirmed it in my heart and mind. But oh, how it hurts..

I have to keep reminding myself to rest in His arms... that's the only thing keeping me from taking it all back. And I would so regret doing that, knowing it's not God's will for my life.

I have to stay strong, I have to obey, but how do I ignore the pain? It's affecting me physically. Changing my sleeping and eating pattern, taking away my ability to focus on anything for any amount of time, and literally giving me headaches...

Creator, only you take brokenness, and create it into beauty once again....

I know God will make something incredible out of this. And that doesn't comfort me at all. The pain is there just the same. But it doesn't matter. All that matters is that He be glorified through the choices I make. That's all that matters. That's all I live for. Him. God. Jesus. Lord. Daddy. Father. Abba. My Savior.

Father, if You are willing, remove this cup from me. Yet not my will, but Yours be done.