Prayer Request

I'm beginning to realize that every time I blog it's when I'm upset. So I apologize but once again this post is gonna be a downer...

I am exhausted. My heart is tired. My body is tired. My mind is tired. I'm all around drained, and I'm crying out to God day and night for answers and getting nothing. I have to compose myself in public to keep from bursting into tears. There isn't one thing that is bothering me more than anything else. There are three huge issues weighing on my heart. To say life is hard right now would be an understatement. I'm not going to name them; they're too personal, but I would ask for your prayers.

All I want is to please God in my decisions.

I went to rest on the couch for a few minutes and my mom glanced at me, then stopped and looked at me again and said, "Olivia, you look so tired." I guess the makeup isn't doing such a great job hiding my tired eyes here lately.
Yeah, I'm wallowing in self-pity right now, if you couldn't tell. But my reasons are legit, I promise. I need help. Serious advice. And comfort. I feel very alone.

Thank you to everyone who reads this and remembers to pray for me.

I don't even know. I just started writing.

I thought I was alone
But turned and saw Him there
He said "Stop pretending
as if I'm not everywhere."

I said "What is it now?
What am I doing wrong?"
He said "Be still, let go.
Stop holding on."

Then He took my hand
And held it tight
Said "I'll handle tomorrow
Rest here for tonight."

So I settled in His arms
And gave Him my trust
I said "What will I do
When the morning comes?"

He said "Hush now, you'll see
I'll guide you every step
Child, I was always there
Shut out by your selfishness."

I said "God what about the storms?"
He said "I'll be there through the night"
I said "When I'm broken, when I'm torn?"
He said "I'll never leave your side"

I said "What about my sin
And all the things I've done?"
He said "Daughter you're forgiven
I look at you and I see my son."

MEN

I'm gonna pull a Social Network and rant about my anger on the internet. Oh well. I prefer typing my feelings out rather than writing it by hand.

Guys are babies. They will say anything to make you believe that they have your best interest in mind, and they're good at it. They know the right things to say, when they're just really immature and insensitive and jealous. They're arrogant, and really don't have a CLUE when the women in their life are hurting, and the only way to get their attention is to make it painfully obvious. They'll tell you you're beautiful, gorgeous, amazing..... so sweet. :) who's the other lucky lady you're also texting that to, jerk?

Now, to be fair: Women send guys on an emotional rollercoaster by changing moods every two minutes and getting angry that the poor dude can't keep up. We're controlling, hormonal, and we twist everything they say into an insult (sorry, but it's fun :).

Also: I have plenty of guys in my life that are very dear to me, that set amazing Christ-like examples, that are exceptions to the faults I just blurted out, and that I love.

Hopefully that evens it out.

Toodles!